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Reality VI


Caregivers struggle with indecisiveness and ambivalence
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If a "rollercoaster" describes one type of emotional ride that caregivers of mentally ill relatives often experience, there is another effect experienced by caregivers which is more accurately compared to a seesaw.

Caregivers often oscillate between seemingly opposing feelings and strategies for acting on the circumstances of the illness.
 

The table below captures some common areas in which caregivers experience vacillation.  Which ones look familiar to you?
Time with my relative OR Time with the rest of my family?
My relative's needs? OR My needs?
It's my duty OR What do I owe him/her?
Follow my heart OR Follow my head
It's my fault OR No, it's not
Love will cure it all OR No amount of love can cure this
I don't want to burden others with my pain OR I want to share my stories
It's a medical condition OR Is it?
I can control the situation OR

I have no control

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The Ups and Downs

Have you experienced this kind of seesaw? Can you think of other examples of contradictory feelings or impulses within yourself? How much and how often do you vacillate? Do you come down on yourself for being indecisive at times?

What would it feel like to accept that two contradictory impulses might not be mutually exclusive? How would it be to stop trying to resolve the competing ideas into a single, best way? In other words, what would it take for you to stop trying to find the best end of the seesaw to sit on, and start noticing the nature of the ride itself.